I can clearly remember the day I found out I was going to be a mom, you will never believe who the first person I told was…but before I share that, let me take you back a year. My husband and I decided to start our family, I stopped taking “the pill,” and waited for the pregnant sign to show up on my pregnancy test. It was supposed to be simple. Test after test, about a year later, and no pregnancy, I was worried so we headed to the doctor. I was prescribed clomid and was given hope that maybe a baby could still be in my future.
I knew that we could always adopt (I am adopted and think it’s wonderful), but I had a personal desire to have a child who could look like me so I wasn’t a one of a kind anymore. I know it sounds kind of silly now, but at the time that is how I was feeling. I always thought it would be fun to compare and say things like, “you have my eyes, my hair, my smile…” I started praying everyday that I would get pregnant.
The next month I was so anxious to take my pregnancy test because I was sure I was pregnant. After 10 minutes of staring at the test nothing showed up. I was crushed, tears were shed, but all I could do was try another month.
Let’s move forward to my third month of clomid. By now I am anxious and a nervous wreck losing hope. I took a generic brand pregnancy test on the earliest day I thought possible (it was a Friday morning before I had to be to work). As I headed out the door I hesitantly looked at the test which showed the usual, “Not Pregnant” sign. My whole day was ruined and I decided to take a break from fertility treatments because I was so stressed out. I figured we needed to start looking at different options.
That Sunday I woke up early because I was going to take family photos for a friend while my husband was sleeping in (back in the no-child days we were good at sleeping in). For some strange reason I decided to take a pregnancy test (call it inspiration maybe). I was scared to look directly at the test, but in my peripherals I noticed it looked different. I quickly picked it up and it said, “Pregnant” as clear as day (thanks Clearblue)! I started giggling and jumping up and down, it was one of my most joyous moments in my life. Unfortunately I was running late and didn’t have time to celebrate with my husband so I didn’t wake him up to tell him. I had to tell somebody the amazing news so I called the most important woman in my life, my Mom. My mom was so happy even when I woke her up at 5 a.m. to tell. I was so excited I headed out the door to meet my friend without my camera, oops! When I returned I told my husband who was surprised and excited!
After that, my days were spent reading pregnancy posts, parenting books, and rubbing my belly which grew and grew and grew (50 lbs+)! When I saw my daughter for the first time all I could think of was how beautiful she was! I was a mommy, a wonderfully blessed mommy (she was 6 lbs. 14 oz.)! I remember being amazed when she already wanted to be close to me at 0 minutes old. When she heard my voice right after being born she tried to open her eyes to see me. I remember saying, “hello baby” over and over again because I was so glad to finally meet her.
Top Photos: Little Tiger 2010 Bottom Photos: Little Dragon 2012
2 years later my son was born. I remembering being so proud to be a mommy to my new son (he was 6 lbs. 2 oz.). At day one, he was his most comfortable being cradled in my arms. In fact, the nurses brought him back into my room because he was crying so loud because he missed me-awwww :). Hopefully he will always feel close to me, even when he is a teenager!
Now 5 years later I feel so blessed to be celebrating Mother’s Day with my two little’s who bring me so much joy each and every day! I feel honored to be called their mom and I try each day to be as perfect as possible so when they go to bed my actions help them to feel unconditionally loved.
Thank you so much for celebrating Mother’s Day with me and for Clearblue for inspiring this blog post.
Happy Mother’s Day!
With Love, Katie & the Kiddos
I was selected for this opportunity as a member of Clever Girls and the content and opinions expressed here are all my own.